June 30, 2014
I made a commitment to myself to work on one blog a week (and hopefully post it) this year. Ah well…best laid plans and great intentions and all that. Actually, in May, I did work on 3 additional blogs besides the one I posted. But I got hung up. Not exactly writer’s block. I was writing furiously. More like I couldn’t say clearly what I wanted to say. I am told that it is important as a writer to be willing to write badly. Okay. I’m willing to write badly. I’m just not willing to allow others to read my bad writing.
I finally abandoned one of the entries and deleted it. The second one is still pining away in my draft box. The third one I really want to share with you. But I have to find a way to do it so you won’t all think I’ve finally lost my tenuous hold on reality…that or quit reading in the middle because it’s just too damn many words.
Here’s how it starts:
“Who Is Your “Inner Critic”? My “inner critic” is also known as my “Ego”. And, for purposes of helping me to learn, my Ego has taken on the form of a Tiger and his name is Jack. So I suppose the bigger question is: WHAT is your “Ego”? Or perhaps, WHO?”
Sorting through all our cultural and religious explanations about what our ego is, getting to know my Ego and finally negotiating a cease-fire with this very intrinsic part of myself has been a fascinating journey.
How about this, I’ll tell my story if you’ll tell me yours: What or who do you identify your Ego and/or Inner Critic to be? Write me in the comment box here…or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
And now I’m back to work. I have had to answer the question, “What do you do?” quite frequently lately. I am unapologetically responding that my current work, my job, is writing. I don’t know why I was chosen to have this gift and this calling…I am humbled and honored and full of gratitude that I get to do this.
And if sometimes the words are powerful, if a little grace, a little love, a little light shines through and sets off a spark or a smile in my reader…I am content.